I'd rather still have one of my childhood friends around and NOT learn the lesson than vice versa.
The story: October 19th, 2011, a very good friend named Jessie passed away. Leaving a wife and a 1 1/2 year old son behind. It was an unfortunate and tragic accident that left many of us asking "Why God WHY?!?!"
And over the past three weeks, I've kept asking that question. I've started to doubt my faith (which has only happened 4 times in my life), I've stopped asking God WHY, and just stopped the conversation. I didn't want to talk with God OR know the reason why. I wasn't ready to hear the lesson or even accept it... Until yesterday after Jessie's memorial.
At the memorial, I ran into many people I haven't spoken to since high school. 10+ years and I thought that leaving all those people behind was a good thing. Well.... Kinda. I would say for every 40 people I saw who I wanted to see again, I saw 1 I didn't. All in all, about 7 people from school who I could care less about and the rest who I was happy to see again. Even though the circumstance made the meeting bittersweet.
Yesterday, I shed a lot of tears. I hugged many friends who I hadn't seen in a long time. I took down countless phone numbers of people who I had lost touch with. And then.... The stories about Jessie started flowing, the laughter became louder, and the memories came rushing back.
And then My phone vibrated telling me someone had commented on my question: Struggling a little bit with faith 2 day. why does god grant miracles for some and not for others? My cousin Heidi responded with this:
Heidi Keen Hazelwood: Favor ain't Fair. Those that are called to be with the Lord are favored. Remember "weeping may endure for the night but joy cometh in the morning"(Psalm 30:5) be strong and stay encouraged-all prayers are answered in God's way-not our own. Hugs
Here are some other responses I got yesterday:
even if the lesson is just to hug more often and tell people each day you love them, there is a lesson, I swear.
there's a lesson in everything, even the really, really, really bad :( Some day we can look back and say, I was stronger because of this and my faith grew. Tits up kid, love ya!
We only get to see the present. Fortunately, He knows (and holds) the future. The miracle ur praying for may inhibit His future plans...it sucks but is also just His way of allowing us to NOT carry the burden, but let Him do it!